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  ETERNAL

  GILLIAN SHIELDS

  Dedication

  for Sarah Massini

  Epigraph

  It is the eternal struggle between these two principles—right and wrong.

  —Abraham Lincoln

  And many of them that sleep in the dust of the earth shall awake . . .

  —Daniel 12:2

  Contents

  Cover

  Title Page

  Prologue

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty

  Chapter Twenty-one

  Chapter Twenty-two

  Chapter Twenty-three

  Chapter Twenty-four

  Chapter Twenty-five

  Chapter Twenty-six

  Chapter Twenty-seven

  Chapter Twenty-eight

  Chapter Twenty-nine

  Chapter Thirty

  Chapter Thirty-one

  About the Author

  Also by Gillian Shields

  Credits

  Copyright

  About the Publisher

  Prologue

  I am not like Evie. I don’t belong in some great romance. I’m just the best friend in the background. Always there, always reliable, down-to-earth. Good old Sarah. That’s how it’s always been. Until now.

  Now I have to make the hardest decision of my life. To go on or to go back.

  I am standing on the hillside above Wyldcliffe. The sun is setting over the wide, wild land. I love this place. I love the wind on my face, and the high call of the birds, and the deep life and history of these ancient hills. The rocks that lie like bones underneath the heather and gorse speak to me of power and strength and eternity.

  When all this began, I thought I could be like those rocks: a backbone of strength for everyone else. “Good old Sarah, she can cope with anything.” I have discovered, though, that I am weak. It turns out that I don’t just want to tend and nurture the needs of others. I have feelings too—and failings. I love. I hate. I feel anger. And what I feel frightens me. It might stop me from doing what I have to do.

  The sun has almost gone now. Night begins to spread over the moors. Out there, in the land that I love, Evie is lost. She has been taken by the enemy and is a prisoner in the still and secret earth. Only I can save her. It is my turn to act.

  Where is my courage now? Where is my strength? What shall I do?

  There are no answers. The day is over. I have to choose. I begin to walk down the hill, under the dark sky, and into the valley that is called Death.

  Chapter One

  I hadn’t been expecting this. In all the chaos and uncertainty of the last few months I had learned to accept many strange things, and I guess I had thought that nothing would ever surprise me again.

  But this was something else.

  Velvet Romaine.

  I’d heard of her, of course. Everyone’s heard of Velvet Romaine. The lurid details of her first sixteen years have been splashed across every tabloid newspaper. It’s just that I didn’t expect her to turn up at Wyldcliffe Abbey School for Young Ladies. Wyldcliffe isn’t the kind of school that attracts the daughters of rock stars. The daughters of duchesses, maybe, but not a flashy wild-child rebel like Velvet. But there she was, when I arrived at the school on the first day of the summer term, and she was making a sensation. Her huge limo had pulled up outside the school’s imposing Gothic building, and as she stepped out she was surrounded by a crowd of excited students and a gaggle of paparazzi. The photographers snapped away eagerly and Velvet stood there lapping up the attention, dressed as though she was ready for a hot date in some sleazy nightclub.

  But I don’t want to sound judgmental. Hey, this is me, Sarah Fitzalan, the earth mother type, got a kind word for everyone, always looking for the positive, always ready to defend the underdog. That’s what they say, anyway.

  I had been so desperate to get back to school. Not that I’m some academic genius or anything. It wasn’t my studies that were pulling me back to the remote valley where Wyldcliffe lies hidden. It wasn’t the spell of the wild moors either, where the gorse and cowslips would be in bloom. The awakening earth called to me, but I turned my face from the hills and thought of nothing but seeing Evie and Helen again.

  You know how people say about their friends, oh, we’re so close we could be sisters? Well, Evie and Helen and I really are sisters. Not related by blood, but by deeper ties. Mystic, elemental forces bind us together, in this life and the next. Sounds stupid, but I’ve always believed there are things in life that we don’t understand, that maybe we can’t see, but they exist all the same. The feel of a place, an atmosphere, premonitions, and prophecies—I think all that means something. I believe that the soul is eternal and that the spirits of the dead can speak to us. And so when Evie first arrived at Wyldcliffe as a lonely scholarship student and started seeing visions of a girl from the past, I didn’t call her crazy. I believed her. I accepted what was going on, and everything that followed.

  How the girl was Lady Agnes Templeton, Evie’s distant ancestor. How, more than a hundred years ago, Agnes had discovered the secrets of the Mystic Way and had become a servant of the sacred fire. How Agnes’s former admirer, Sebastian Fairfax, was the same person as the mysterious young man that Evie was secretly seeing. How Sebastian had become trapped in a futile quest for immortality. How we had discovered our own elemental powers—water for Evie, air for Helen, earth for me—and used them to save Sebastian’s soul. And how, finally, Sebastian had passed from this life and left Evie grieving for an impossible love.

  All things considered, we had a lot to talk about. We had faced death together. Evie had lost her first love and Helen had lost her mother, and I had been desperately sad for them both. As usual I had put all my energy into trying to understand and sympathize with and care for my friends, but to tell the truth, when I’d said good-bye to them at the end of term and gone home for the holidays, I had felt lost and uprooted without them. It was as if I didn’t exist without Evie and Helen and their problems, as though I were just wandering about on the edge of the story of my life. Sarah the kind one, the supportive one—but if there was no one to support, what was I supposed to do?

  And then the dreams had started.

  It was the same thing, night after night. I was in an underground cave. Torches were burning in the shadows. Someone was near me. His eyes met mine. It was someone who knew me, right the way through. Someone I had no secrets from. Someone who loved me. Not for being good or strong, but just for being me, all of me, good and bad. I reached up to kiss him, my heart and lips yearning. And then I was chilled by an indescribable feeling of horror. The face turned into a wizened mask. There was a knife. I was in pain. Thick smoke swirled around me. There was chanting and singing and the sound of drums; drumming, drumming, drumming in my head until I thought I would go insane.

  Perhaps it was simply a reaction to everything I had been through with Evie and Helen, but I believed it was an omen, a sign of more danger to come. Whatever the truth of it, dreams and darkness were pulling me back to Wyldcliffe, and I was longing to see my friends. So I really wasn’t too pleased when the circus surrounding Velvet Romaine seemed to be bringing the whole place to a grinding halt.

  There she
was, posing next to her over-the-top car as the photographers screamed, “Velvet! This way! Give us a smile!” She wasn’t smiling, though. She looked furious. Her hair was jet-black, cut into a Louise Brooks–style bob, and she exuded the same kind of dangerous sexiness as the classic screen star. Her short skirt showed off slim legs, torn fishnet stockings, and expensive-looking black lace-up boots. All the other Wyldcliffe girls, who were staring with disbelief, were wearing the old-fashioned red and gray school uniform. I wondered what Velvet would look like when the Wyldcliffe teachers, or mistresses, made her get rid of her designer clothes and her heavy eyeliner and goth lipstick. But right now she was making the most of her grand entrance as she pouted for the photographers, sultry and rebellious. Whatever Wyldcliffe’s past secrets were, it had never seen anything like this before. As I watched Velvet, she reminded me of a cornered animal putting up a defiant last stand, ready to lash out at anything and anyone who got in her way.

  “Is that really her?” a girl from my class, Camilla Willoughby-Stuart, whispered excitedly at my side. “Velvet Romaine?”

  “It looks like it.”

  “What is she doing here? Doesn’t she live in L.A. or somewhere like that? She’ll be bored to death at Wyldcliffe. I mean, she goes to these amazing parties with actors and musicians and rock stars. I’ve read about her in all the magazines. Didn’t she go to rehab when she was only thirteen? And last year she ran off with some guy twice her age. . . .”

  Other stories about Velvet Romaine flashed into my mind. Despite her money and glamour, she’d already met with tragedy in her short life. I recalled that she’d been in a car crash where her younger sister had been killed, and then there had been some incident about a fire at her last boarding school—I couldn’t quite remember what had happened. I usually read magazines about horse riding, not celebrity gossip. But Camilla seemed to know all about her.

  “Ooh, it must have been awful for Velvet at L’École des Montagnes,” she rattled on. “It’s a fantastic school in the Swiss Alps—all the European royals go there—but her best friend was scarred for life after that fire they had. No wonder she didn’t want to stay there. But why come to Wyldcliffe? It’s far too quiet for someone like Velvet Romaine!”

  “Perhaps that’s why her parents want her to come here,” I said. “You know—order, purpose, discipline, and all the rest. Old-fashioned values.”

  Camilla grimaced. “She’s going to hate it. Have you seen her clothes? She looks so amazing. I wish my mom would let me have some boots like that. . . .”

  As Camilla chattered away, a woman with a plain face and scraped-back hairstyle opened the school’s massive oak door and came out to stand on the step next to Velvet. It was Miss Scratton, our history teacher. She addressed the photographers coldly.

  “This is private property. If you don’t leave immediately, I shall call the police. Please respect the fact that this is a school and a place of learning.” She turned to Velvet. “I am Miss Scratton, the new High Mistress of Wyldcliffe. I want to welcome you to the Abbey, but let’s go somewhere more private. Girls, what are you all doing hanging about here with your mouths open like goldfish? Most undignified. I’m sure you all have plenty to do to unpack and settle down before classes start tomorrow.” The gaping students reluctantly moved away, and Miss Scratton beckoned me over. “Sarah, could you please stay a moment?” She smiled faintly. “You are just the person I was looking for. You can help show Velvet around.”

  Velvet flicked a snooty stare at me, as though I were some kind of servant. My heart sank. Normally I was only too happy to help new students, but she was giving off such a hostile attitude, like she could read my thoughts and didn’t think much of them. If Miss Scratton wanted me to be friendly with Velvet Romaine, I would try my best, but I was desperate to see my real friends as soon as I could. I looked around uneasily. “Um . . . I was looking for—”

  “For Evie and Helen?” Again there was a faint gleam of sympathy in Miss Scratton’s sharp black eyes. “They haven’t arrived yet. I believe they are traveling to Wyldcliffe together on the train. You’ll see them soon enough. Come, both of you. Follow me!”

  There was more clamor and flurry from the photographers as we followed Miss Scratton through the heavy door. She closed it firmly behind us, and I found myself in the familiar entrance hall. The somber black-and-white tiles, the grand marble staircase, and the stone hearth were exactly as they had always been, but then I gasped in surprise. For a moment I thought that Evie was staring at me across the hallway like a ghost. The face of a girl with starry gray eyes and long red hair seemed to float in front of my eyes in the gloomy light.

  “I see you’re admiring the portrait of Lady Agnes, Sarah,” Miss Scratton said. “I had it moved here during the vacation. It looks very well in the entrance hall, don’t you think?”

  For a moment I couldn’t speak, but Velvet glanced at the painting and said insolently, “She looks as crazy as the rest of this place. Who is she anyway?”

  “Lady Agnes was the daughter of Lord Charles Templeton, who built the present house in the nineteenth century,” Miss Scratton replied in calm, measured tones. “She was an extraordinarily gifted young woman who sadly died young. I feel it is only right that we should remember her.” Then she swept across the hallway and down a window-less corridor, paneled in dark wood. Our feet echoed on the polished floor as we followed her. Velvet slouched along behind Miss Scratton, and I tried to look as though I hadn’t a care in the world. But seeing Agnes’s picture unexpectedly like that had unnerved me.

  To me, she wasn’t just someone from history to remember and wonder about. To me, she was real. Agnes was Evie’s link with the past, but she was also our Mystic Sister of the fire element. And her sea-gray eyes had seemed to hold a clear warning for me that, despite the victories of the term before, our struggles weren’t yet over.

  Chapter Two

  I didn’t want to come here. I’ve been expelled from six schools, and you’ll probably end up expelling me too.” Velvet looked belligerent as she faced Miss Scratton over the mahogany desk in the High Mistress’s book-lined study. I wondered if her aggressive attitude was a cover for feeling lost and isolated, but she actually seemed pretty at ease as she leaned back in her chair and crossed her long legs. Her voice was attractively low and husky, and sounded more American than English.

  “Yes, your parents have explained about your interrupted schooling, Velvet,” replied Miss Scratton. “Let’s hope that the routine and traditions of Wyldcliffe will provide you with some much-needed security. If you have any problems settling in, you can come to me or to Sarah. She will be in your dorm and has been at Wyldcliffe for nearly five years. Sarah’s mother was a pupil here, as was her grandmother, Lady Fitzalan, so she knows all the ways of the school.”

  Velvet’s sulky face registered a flicker of interest and surprise as she heard my grandmother’s name. “Is everyone here, like, titled? It’s all a bit snobby, isn’t it?”

  “We are fortunate to attract the daughters of some of our oldest families. But we believe that everyone is capable of developing the attributes of a lady: selflessness, loyalty, and honor. We are interested in each individual student, not in her pedigree.”

  “Well, mine sucks,” mocked Velvet. “Dad was brought up on the wrong side of the tracks, and Mom had me when she was sixteen. But they’ve got something your stuck-up ladies haven’t got—talent.”

  “Then let’s hope you’ve inherited some of it. There are lots of opportunities for music at Wyldcliffe—”

  “You don’t get it, do you? My dad’s Rick Romaine—the biggest rock star on the planet. I made a hit record with him when I was twelve years old. I’m not going to join some crappy school choir. I’m not going to do anything I don’t want to do, and you can’t make me.”

  Miss Scratton held Velvet’s gaze for a moment, then sighed. “We are simply trying to help you and your parents, Velvet. No other reputable school would take you. This might be your l
ast chance.”

  “Yeah, whatever. Thanks a bunch and all that, but the sooner I’m out of this dump the better.”

  “We shall see,” replied Miss Scratton calmly. “Sarah, would you please take Velvet and show her the school? Then take her to the dorm. She will need to change into the school uniform before the bell goes for dinner tonight.”

  Velvet looked mutinous again, so I hurried her out of Miss Scratton’s study before she could launch into another argument. As soon as I had got her away from the High Mistress, Velvet dropped the attitude and turned to me with a smile full of lazy charm, but I felt somehow that this was just another pose she was trying out.

  “Sorry about dissing your beloved school,” she said with a laugh, “but I have to start as I intend to go on.”

  “What do you mean?”

  “If I behave badly enough, I reckon it’ll be a month at most before they chuck me out. Then I can get back home to L.A. God, I don’t know how you can stand it here. It feels so dead,” she said, glancing around at the antique prints and paintings that hung on the walls. As we walked along, I opened various doors to show her the magnificent formal library and the high-ceilinged classrooms. “Yeah, it’s all very fancy,” Velvet admitted. “But it doesn’t mean that I’ll stay. I’ve been to loads of schools, and this is definitely the weirdest. No boys, no male teachers, no TV allowed, practically no contact with the outside world, stuck in the middle of the hideous countryside. My parents must have chosen this particular hellhole as a joke.”